Prep

I'm quite nervous about tomorrow. It seems like I have the faith in everyone else but myself. I feel like I stand no chance against all those degree graduates pitting against me but I know I should have much more faith in myself to at least give my best. Because it sucks to have lost the battle before it even started.

Even if things don't work out and I'm not what they're looking for, it'd be an experience going through a real working interview after so long. (Internships aside). So yes, I'll give my best and whatever the outcome, I must not dwell on it and move on with my life. (Is my prep talk succeeding in calming my nerves? Not really.)

It's a pain knowing how wonderful it'd be tomorrow evening - finally meeting the rest after a long time but having to go through some life-changing event right before that. Life-changing, yes! I know I sound like I'm over dramatising things but I always feel that based on how your interviews or evaluations go, you'll always find out something new about the industry + yourself. So life-changing it is.

I know I get 'stage frights' and often let nerves get the better of me during things like these. I'm just hoping I get to show fully what I've got to offer and that if I face rejection, it's because I'm not what they're looking for - rather than having my nervous wrecked persona screw things up for me... You get the picture.

[Edit @ 3PM, Friday: Postponed to Monday. Just when I thought I was ready to get it over and done with. Haha. While I was in a mad rush to prepare my portfolio and organise everything, I was also wishing the interview was on Monday instead. Well what do you know...I guess my prayers were answered at the wrong time.]