If 2009 was a good year of revelations, consistency, and joy, 2010 is a year of sorrow, volatility and bitter desperation.

Funny how much one can change in a year.

Lost

I feel thoroughly detached from the world. Feels like I'm leading a totally separate life from everyone around me. It's as if my entire viewpoint on life is too different and difficult to understand.

What I probably really need is some serious soul-searching. I imagine it will be a good, interesting, (perhaps even mildly dangerous) idea to travel the world on my own and start anew. Clear my thoughts and worries of the current world I live in and wonder if there are other things that are more worth my worry, and find out if these things I'm worrying about now, are worth worrying about at all. Of course, visas, money, come into play and I realise materialising this is near impossible to begin with.

So I'm stuck in a pendulum swing, between wants and needs all meshed up into one ball of fury burning me away. And I'm forced to believe I'm on the right path in life. That is the only option open right now.

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I went to the place we used to go, hand in hand, laughing at everything around us, without a care in the world. I was proud of you and you were proud of me. We held our heads up high. We sang tunes created from nowhere.

You cupped my face and I, yours. You gaze at me with such tenderness, I kiss you dearly on the cheeks. I pray a silent prayer every time you leave, for you to one day return again.